brianne333

Hello everyone!
  I figured it was time to update again though I don't have anything terribly interesting to share!  I still owe some of you some art and I have not forgotten!  I have started to reach out to people, and if you haven't heard from me yet, please rest assured that you will.  I am tackling sketch commissions first and I am trying to go in order so if you are waiting on a sketch and haven't heard from me, I will reach out to you as soon as I get to you so that there isn't much of a wait for your art past the point of me reaching out.   I appreciate the patience and understanding from everyone and I apologize deeply for the wait.  As I've gone through some obstacles over the last few year, I have been shown some incredible kindness from people - many of who I don't really know beyond tumblr or DA etc!  And it has touched my heart and made things a lot easier for me to deal with while I go through other stuff.  And I can't thank you enough for that.  No one deserves to have to wait so long and there is no excuse great enough to justify it.  Please know that I am truly sorry and truly appreciative.

I kind of imagine it must seem like I'll never upload art again!  But that is not my intention.  Some of you know that I was without a properly working PC for some time, so even after the dust had settled from us losing our home I still had to contend with other obstacles.  Luckily, I have a PC again and I've finally got my "ducks in a row" so to speak so I'm ready to get to work   Sadly, I have had to kind of accept that in this stage of my life I just don't have much time for internet activities anymore so aside from uploading things here or at tumblr (and I'm considering opening up an instagram account?) I won't be around much.  So I'd still strongly prefer if you contact me via email at AutumnTwilight@gmail.com rather than leaving me a note here, which might go unnoticed for too long (and I don't want anyone to think I am ignoring them!).  Again, I will reach out to those waiting as well, one by one as I get to each person also.

Hi everyone - how are you?  I know I haven't been around, and I apologize about any correspondance that went unanswered.  I'm afraid this is the first time in a very very long time I have logged into DA.  

I could tell you a lot about what has happened to me over the last 16 months.  I could write pages and pages about what I've gone through.  But, I'm not going to do that.  I will instead simply say that I have been through some life-altering events and crises.  I have been at the lowest low, the deepest depression and I have found my life... quite different than what it had been.  I had a difficult time dealing with the events of my life.  Logging on to DA was definitely not on my mind.  So I haven't posted anything here in over a year.  I have not drawn anything in longer.  

But, my life is starting to sort itself out a bit.  I'm starting to recover, starting to feel a little bit human again.  I created something for the first time in a long time (which I will upload here).  I apologize I've been out of communication.  I'm sorry if you're waiting on commissions.  I have to be honest and tell you that while I'm working at doing art again and getting back in the swing of it, I still have a lot going on with work and moving and other things that have to take a priority at the moment.  So I will be working on them, but it will still have to be a "free" time sort of thing.  Thank you for being patient.

I'm sorry about being vague about things here, my intention isn't to be dramatic, but some things are too private.  But I also felt I needed to say something here, and let people know I'm still alive, I'm okay, and I'm working on being creative again.  Thank you to those who reached out to me with concern, I appreciate it so very much.

That all being said, I have no plans on logging in regularly and will likely only log in to upload new work.  If you need to reach me, please email me at AutumnTwilight@gmail.com - and if you could please include your DA username in the email (as I only know some people by the username!) I would appreciate it  

I hope this finds you all well

Hi everyone!  I know I've been really MIA here at Deviantart - since my life has experienced a long series of "downs" and I'm not arting much right now (read: at all) I don't even remember to check DA to be honest.  And I hate that I'm coming back to give an update like this, but I need to reach as many people as I can.

My dog Loki needs a lifesaving surgery and he needs it fast.  We can't afford it, plain and simple.  None of the vets who can perform the surgery are willing to do a payment plan of any sort.  I have contacted every charity and organization I can find so far and so far no one has been able to help us.  So it's come down to us raising money on GoFundMe essentially.  The problem is that I'm having a hard time getting it passed around.  You know how you see those GoFundMe posts sometimes that have like 10k notes?  Yeah, that isn't like mine at all.  So here's where I am pleading for your help.  Please share our link.  Share it on DA, Facebook, Twitter, Tumblr, Instagram, at work, with friends - share it anywhere you can please.  And then encourage other people to share it too.  Our only chance of saving our dogs life is if we reach a lot of people.  It's a large amount of money to raise, we need a lot of eyes on this.

There are more details in the post - pictures, contact information for our vet (I know this sort of thing makes people skeptical, so I want it to be easy for people to confirm that this is unfortunately very real), and updates about us contacting organizations.

Please please please pass this on.  We are going to lose our dog if we can't raise this money fast.  
www.gofundme.com/karst9tg

PS - if you leave a comment here at all and I don't respond, please forgive me.  As I said, I often don't remember to check DA right now and it's probably easier to reach me via email or Tumblr.  Thank you everyone!

Commissions are to start rolling in again over the next week - I want to give the head's up as I know so many of you have been waiting oh so patiently.

I want to thank everyone again.  I know it's an "old" song and dance, but I can't help but keep thanking you all.  If you keep up with my tumblr, you've probably seen the continued struggles me and my husband have been going through.  If you haven't, I will merely summarize it by saying that this last year has been the hardest of my life.  Every time we've thought that things were improving, we were quickly proved wrong.  And things are still not great here (hubby is still looking for work, we're close to losing our house still) but there are up-sides and I'm not too blind to see them (we've made it this far, hubby has a good job lead right now, hubby's depression is SO so so so much better).  Art is hard to do when you feel like everything in your life is wrong and off.  It's hard to really do anything at all when you want to give up.  But I'm ready again.  I've accepted that whatever is going to happen....is going to happen.  I've done everything I can at this point and there is nothing left for me to do but hope and pray and keep my fingers and toes crossed!  Accepting that has lifted a weight from my shoulders.  It's not that I don't still worry about losing the house.  It's that I know I can't do anything else right now.  It's a kind of freedom to recognize where you have no control.  And with that recognition, I'm finally able to be creative again and put myself back into it.  

Thank you so much for waiting.  Thank you for being understanding and supportive and KIND in a way no one owed me.  I appreciate it so much.  

Going forward I'd also like to note that any warm up sketches and doodles will be only uploaded to Tumblr unless they are fanart (all sketch commissions will still be uploaded here at DA), so if you care about that at all, follow me over there!

Edited to add 2/3 - 
Thank you so much everyone.  Thanks for passing on the link and for helping out.  We met our goal - which, by itself, is something I could never have dreamed would happen - and we did it lightning fast thanks to incredible generosity and kindness.  I have known for a long time that I'm incredibly blessed in several areas of my life, regardless of whatever happens in the other areas.  Having made so many friendships with people online and off with people who are inspiring, kind, generous, selfless and all around awesomesauce is one of those things I realize went really REALLY right in my life.  In this instance, it wasn't just having people help and essentially dig us out of a real bad situation, but also just showing a lot of love to us.  No one has been judgmental (the joke is that no one could ever be as judgmental about my life as I already am anyways!) and people have said kind and reassuring things to let us know that we'll get through this and that we're not alone through any of it.  It goes a long ways to soothe fear and sadness when you know you are not alone.  Thank you very much - so much love and gratitude to you all.
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gofund.me/l8z47g

^ That link right there goes to our GoFundMe page and it has an explanation of what is happening there.  

I'm going to make this as short and sweet as possible.  And please forgive that I'm just going to copy/paste this info anywhere I post this.  It is embarrassing and sad having to ask for help like this again.  But as I mention on the fundraiser page, it's not so embarrassing that I would rather just lose my house.  Some of you know I've had a bad year.  It's not been great.  It would definitely be about a thousand times worse to lose our house though, especially right as we seem to have finally made some significant progress with my husbands depression.  So there it is.  If you can help - we appreciate it, really.  There is no way to type exactly how MUCH we appreciate it, so please read that as it was intended - with the utmost gratitude and love.  If you can pass this link on, and share it - anywhere at all - it would mean a lot.  After all, the more eyes that see this, the better chance we have at making it out of this.  Thank you.

As an aside, if you are waiting for art from me...I'm sorry for your wait. I really am.  I desperately want to be creative but it's also quite hard to do so when you feel emotionally and mentally crushed.  I am trying though and I promise that as soon as I can get back on the ol' horse, I will be doing so and commissions will - of course - be a top priority in my life. Thank you for your patience all of you.